I've been depressed for my whole life... Everything bad happens to me all the time, and nobody cares... Right now I feel like killing myself, and guess how my parents support me? By threatening to throw me out of the house, saying things like "we don't need you here" and "I hate your fucking guts"when all I've ever wanted is to feel like somebody cares about me... now when they get back from Spain (yes they went to Spain without me, using MY money to pay for THEIR holiday) I will probably be thrown out of the house with nowhere to go, and nothing to live for...
I've lost everything I ever loved... and I keep losing more and more each day... soon I will have no friends left at all... its funny in a way, everyone says "I will never leave you" or "I promise to stay by your side forever" or "I'll always be here for you" or whatever, but those very same people leave me the next day like I meant NOTHING to them...
I've pretty much been suicidal for 7 years, getting worse and worse all the time... Counselors don't help me, they can't help me... Nothing can...
My life is pointless, I just lay in bed all day, crying and feeling lonely... Thinking about all the bad stuff in the world, not only in my own life, but everything... and when I try to smile and make friends; when I think somebody cares about me; when I trust somebody... They betray my trust, they show me that my love meant nothing to them...
I might as well not exist... at least then I wouldn't have to feel this pain all the time... If only there was a way to make it so that I never existed... I just want you all to know that I hate this world... I hate this life... I can't be happy, ever....
Sta.sh
im on the second season 
2 of them thought it was great the others are taking igt in a different way :I do you think we would beable to with only 3 people?
